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  Blurry

  An Off-Limits Novel

  Michelle Hercules

  Infinite Sky Publishing

  Blurry © 2021 by Michelle Hercules

  All rights reserved.

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  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Photography: Michelle Lancaster

  Model: Chad Hurstt

  Editor: Hot Tree Editing

  Proofreader: My Brother’s Editor

  Contents

  1. Chiara

  2. Alistair

  3. Chiara

  4. Alistair

  5. Chiara

  6. Alistair

  7. Chiara

  8. Chiara

  9. Alistair

  10. Chiara

  11. Chiara

  12. Alistair

  13. Chiara

  14. Chiara

  15. Alistair

  16. Chiara

  17. Chiara

  18. Chiara

  19. Alistair

  20. Chiara

  21. Alistair

  22. Chiara

  23. Chiara

  24. Chiara

  25. Chiara

  26. Alistair

  27. Alistair

  28. Chiara

  29. Chiara

  30. Alistair

  31. Alistair

  32. Chiara

  33. Chiara

  34. Chiara

  35. Alistair

  36. Alistair

  37. Chiara

  38. Chiara

  39. Chiara

  40. Chiara

  41. Alistair

  42. Chiara

  43. Chiara

  44. Chiara

  45. Chiara

  46. Chiara

  47. Chiara

  48. Chiara

  49. Alistair

  50. Alistair

  Also by Michelle Hercules

  About the Author

  1

  Chiara

  Plastering a fake smile on my face, I power through the courtyard, greeting whoever is in my way with a cheery hello. The huge box in my hands is heavy, but it serves as a shield since I’m about to enter a mine zone.

  Inside my grandparents’ villa is chaos central. Italians as a rule can’t congregate under one roof without mayhem. Add in wedding preparations and earplugs are required if you don’t want to go deaf. The cacophony of several voices competing to be the loudest is not what bothers me; it’s the people responsible for the noise. A viper’s nest is a great analogy to describe the Moretti family.

  Distant family members and strangers alike greet me as I stride toward the double doors that lead to the back of the main house. Before I take the steps down and join the fray of people working furiously to make sure my cousin’s wedding is perfect, I pause to take in the sight. The breathtaking view of the Tuscan mountains is one of the few positive aspects of coming to Villa Moretti. If only this place wasn’t spoiled by my rotten family.

  The loud voice of Aunt Laura giving hell to someone brings me back from my reverie. I quickly find her shouting at a poor caterer. Her arm shakes as she points a chubby finger at the guy’s face. I don’t know what he did, but it’s released the vicious beast that lives inside dear Auntie. I’d better stay the hell away from her.

  Quickly taking the steps down into the backyard, I set the box with flower arrangements on a table nearby and search for the only thing that will help me cope with today’s festivities. Alcohol. I scan the outside area, finding my favorite cousin, Max, already behind the temporary bar set up for the occasion. The corners of my lips twitch upward when I see what’s in his hand—a bottle of prosecco. He wastes no time. I make a beeline in his direction, and, as if sensing my approach, he raises his head. His full lips twist into his trademark smirk, the one that makes him one of the highest paid male models in the world.

  “Oh, hello there, Chibi.”

  “Starting early, aren’t you?”

  Max shrugs right before he pops the bottle of prosecco open. “What can I say? I need liquid courage to endure events like these.”

  He grabs two glasses and fills them up, almost to the brim. Practicality over classiness is Max’s motto, much to his mother’s dismay.

  I roll my eyes. “Oh, give me a break. You love weddings. All those desperate single women, hoping to find their Prince Charming. It’s like an all-you-can-eat buffet.”

  Max grants me a toothy grin. “Not this time. I think I’ve slept with all of Paola’s friends.”

  Before I can open my mouth, Max continues. “The fuckable ones, I mean.”

  “You’re horrible. One day you’ll find the girl who will bring you down to your knees. I hope I’m around to witness your fall.”

  Bringing the glass of prosecco to my lips, I drink the whole thing in one gulp. The cool, fizzy beverage relieves my parched throat, but it does nothing to ease the pang in my chest. I should have told Pietro how I felt before my cousin Paola swooped in for the kill. He was one of my closest friends, after all, but I choked, mainly because he’s five years older than me and probably only sees me as a child till this day.

  “You’ll be waiting a long time.” Max pauses and stares intently. His scrutinizing gaze unnerves me, and I have an inkling of what he’s thinking. “So, how are you holding on, coz?”

  Pretending I don’t know what he’s talking about, I frown, signaling with a wave of my hand for him to fill my glass again. “What do you mean?”

  “Don’t play dumb with me. I know you better than you know yourself.”

  I scowl at Max before I bring the refilled glass of prosecco to my lips. I’m glad the alcohol is already helping me relax. Today is going to be murder, just as expected.

  “Listen, he doesn’t deserve you,” he continues.

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I turn my back to Max, pretending to watch the wedding preparations. Irritation simmers just below my skin. Why does he have to be such a busybody?

  “You don’t need to pretend with me, Chibi. I’m not blind. Pietro had all the chances in the world, and he chose Paola over you. He’s not your guy. He has never been your guy. You’re amazing, and he’s second-rate.”

  Max’s words make something clench in my chest, and tears prickle my eyes. I want to believe his words, but today it’s almost impossible. If I’m all that, then how come Pietro is marrying Paola?

  Fuck. What’s up with Max and this sensitive bullshit conversation?

  “I know I’m amazing, okay?” I reply feebly.

  I’m so full of shit. My only consolation in this whole mess is that Max is the only one in my family who paid enough attention to see my true feelings toward Pietro. Everyone else, including Paola, seems oblivious.

  “I’ve told you before, I’d tap you if you weren’t my cousin.”

  Whipping my face in his direction, I glare at him. “Ew. Why do you have to be so gross?”

  “Chiara? Is that you?”

  “Cazzo! It’s Mother.” I scramble to finish my drink before going to her.

  It’s best if she doesn’t interact with Max. He loves to antagonize her, and then I’m the one who has to deal with the woman.

  My face is probably flushed when I stop in front of
Ofelia Moretti, a former Miss Italia who still retains her pageant-days poise and beauty. Her perfectly arched eyebrows would furrow if her forehead wasn’t frozen by Botox. But the pinch of her lips and the displeasure in her gaze are enough hints that I’m about to receive some negative comment.

  With a tsking sound, she grabs a strand of my hair. “You look ghastly. Instead of drinking with Max, you should have done something about your appearance.”

  I take a step back to get out of her reach. “What’s wrong with my appearance?”

  “The question is what’s not wrong with it? The hairdresser has finished with your cousin. Maybe he can do something about your hair. As for your attire….” Her gaze drops to take in the length of my body. “Well, there’s nothing that can be done about it.”

  I want to tell my mother to go fuck herself. The insult obviously dies in my throat. She wouldn’t hesitate to slap me across the face in front of all these people. She’s done it before. There’s nothing wrong with my fifties-inspired strapless dress. Sure, the tight bodice emphasizes my girls more than she deems appropriate, but there’s nothing I can do about it. Does she want me to bind my breasts so I look like flat-chested Paola? Probably. I could tell her I’m wearing vintage Christian Dior, one of her favorite designers, but what good would it do? She’d probably say I make everything look trashy.

  Mom makes a grab for my arm, but I sidestep her. “I have to use the restroom. I’ll meet you inside.”

  I run back into the house as fast as my high-heeled shoes allow, veering toward the stairs. Once I reach the landing, I hear animated female voices coming from the master suite. I skid to a halt. The prosecco I just downed burns in my belly while hurtful memories assault me. Among other awful things, my cousin is a bully. Together with her friends, she tormented me through school. She’s a couple of years older than me, but instead of bringing me into the fold when I joined their snobbish private school, she took pleasure in making my life a living hell. If Max hadn’t been there, I don’t know if I would have survived. Things only changed when I grew older and boys started to take notice of me. Suddenly, Paola wanted to be my best friend, and I was naïve enough to believe her bullshit.

  Pietro, her fiancé, was my first friend there and the object of my affection. He was an awkward teen during high school, super tall and gawky, a little nerdy too. He didn’t turn hot until he was in college. That’s when Paola made her move and my crush died a sudden and painful death.

  Maybe Max is right. I should have told Pietro how I felt sooner, but I was terrified of losing his friendship then and never confessed. Besides, he never would have really taken me seriously. Fat good that did me. I lost his friendship anyway when he started dating my cousin. In fact, this is the first time I’ll have seen him in six months. But the good old saying “out of sight, out of mind” doesn’t apply to me if the constant pain in my chest is any indication.

  Forcing my feet to move, I veer in the opposite direction of Paola and her phony friends, locking myself in the restroom down the corridor. I stare at my reflection in the mirror, holding a strand of my blonde hair between my fingers. I’m not ugly, but compared to Paola—who’s tall, thin as a model, and gorgeous—I’m plain, and there’s no way to hide my curves. No wonder Pietro picked her over me, but damn it, Paola isn’t even nice unless she’s faking it for him. I should have been braver and confessed I liked him before Paola was ever in the picture.

  Get a grip on yourself, Chiara. Despite all her flaws, Pietro still picked her over you. It’s time to move on.

  I apply a fresh coat of lipstick and try to redo my curls using my fingers. No way in hell I’m going to let Paola’s stylist touch my hair. Running a hand down the length of my dress, I attempt to smooth out the barely visible wrinkles, thinking about my mother’s comment. The dress is perfect and completely appropriate for a summer wedding. I don’t know why I’m surprised she disliked it. She has criticized everything I’ve worn since I was old enough to pick my own clothes.

  My shoulders sag forward as I let out a heavy sigh. It’s just one day, Chiara. You can do this. I straighten my back and raise my chin, ready to face the music, when the door bursts open.

  I let out a yelp as Pietro stares at me wide-eyed. “Oh, so sorry, Chiara. I didn’t know you were in here.”

  My heart takes off in a mad race. Why does the man have to look ten thousand times more appealing in his wedding tuxedo? His curls have been tamed with some gel, and his eternal five-o’clock shadow is nowhere in sight.

  “That’s okay. I was just freshening up my makeup. I’m all done.”

  He gives me an elevator glance, his gaze dropping to my shoes before slowly traveling back up the length of my body. “You look stunning, Chiara.”

  My heart does a backflip at his compliment. Traitorous muscle.

  “So do you.”

  “Did you bring a date?”

  “No. I’m not seeing anyone at the moment.”

  Why did I tell him that?

  “It’s really hard to believe a gorgeous girl like you is single. I would have snatched you up in a heartbeat if I had the chance.”

  Uh, what?

  He did not just say that.

  “What are you talking about, Pietro?”

  He frowns, and it could be the prosecco here, but I think I catch a glint of guilt in his gaze.

  “Sorry, I shouldn’t have said anything. It must be the pre-wedding jitters.”

  Feeling bold and angry as well, I take a couple of steps closer. “Pietro, were you ever attracted to me?”

  “Come on, Chiara. Let’s forget I said anything, okay?”

  “No, you can’t take those words back.”

  His thick eyebrows furrow, and his lips turn into a thin, flat line. It’s his trademark expression when he’s feeling cornered.

  Shit, I can’t believe this is happening, but I can’t back down now. I have to know.

  “Answer me, Pietro!” I raise my voice, not caring if we’re overheard.

  “All right. I had a huge crush on you when we were at All Saints. God, I thought you knew.”

  My stomach bottoms out. I feel like I’ve been sucker punched. With wobbly steps, I reach for the granite top of the sink, fighting to get air into my lungs.

  “Shit, Chiara. I swore to myself I would never say anything to you. I felt like such a perv for crushing on you. It doesn’t matter anyway. I eventually moved on. Then Paola came along, and, well, the rest is history.”

  I can barely hear what he’s saying over the loud sound of my pulse hammering in my ears.

  “I-I can’t be here.”

  Pushing him out of my way, I run out of the bathroom as if the devil is after me, rushing down the stairs two steps at a time. It’s a miracle I don’t twist an ankle. I veer toward the front door, ready to bolt and skip this fucking wedding. No way in hell I’ll be able to stand aside and watch my hateful cousin marry the man of my dreams. Knowing it could have been me in her place if Pietro and I hadn’t been such cowards and concerned about society makes it a thousand—no, a billion times worse.

  I bump into Grandpa outside, struggling with his cane as he tries to get into the sporty convertible I know doesn’t belong to him.

  “Where are you going, Nonno?” I ask.

  “Your useless father forgot to bring the cigars. I’m going into town to get them.”

  “No you’re not, Dad.” My mother’s voice rings out right behind me, making my skin crawl. I don’t want to deal with her on top of everything else.

  “We can’t have a wedding without cigars.”

  “You just took your medication, and you know how woozy it makes you. You’ll get into a car wreck.”

  Grandpa, being the proud man he is, glares at his daughter, who does the same in return. Stuck in the middle, I see that as the perfect opportunity to get out of here.

  “I’ll get the cigars for you, Nonno.”

  “Nonsense. We’ll send someone from the catering company. You’re needed insi
de, Chiara.”

  With a quick glance in her direction, I see that if I don’t go now, she’ll drag me back to the house by my hair if necessary. I search for my car and notice it’s been moved and is now stuck between two catering company vans. Shit! Needing to make a hasty exit, I veer toward one of the villa’s Vespas because Grandpa is still halfway inside the little convertible.

  As usual, the key is already in the ignition. The engine turns on with a creaking noise, and before my mother can do anything to stop me, I take off.

  2

  Alistair

  I’m such a fucking moron. Slamming my palm against the side of the car, I look ahead at the deserted road. It stretches on for miles without a sign of life nearby. I can’t be that far from the winery.

  Glaring at the useless phone in my hand, I feel tempted to break it to pieces. Forgetting to charge the blasted thing last night was exactly what I needed on top of a flat tire. Now I can either walk back to town or wait for someone to drive by and hope to score a ride.

  I should have checked if the rental car had a jack before I accepted it. What good is a spare tire if I can’t lift the damn car off the ground to change it? I rub my face and fight the urge to scream from the top of my lungs. This was supposed to be a stress-free trip, a reward to myself after all the bullshit I went through in the last year.